Then Doubt Came Knocking

Lately, doubt has been knocking loudly on my door about my social media campaign. What should I be putting out there? Am I doing enough? Why am I doing it – Is it even worth the effort? Is it meaningful to others? What am I receiving financially, spiritually, and personally from it?

I tapped into my sixth (third-eye) chakra to find clarity, using both my rational-analytical mind and my intuitive guidance. But, I received no clarity. And doubt continued to knock.

When doubt came knocking, I didn’t want to let it in. Nope! I thought to myself, doubt’s a dream killer. No way, I’m going to let doubt creep in!! Yet, it did. And it stayed. Because I didn’t allow it to speak to me and teach me.

So, this morning, instead of trying to push doubt out the door, I invited it into my meditation. I realized I had been pushing away a lot of doubts lately, in the cloak of “solving problems.” But, I was not addressing the true problem at all – which was “doubt’ itself.

As I sat with doubt, I felt it hunkered down in my third (solar-plexus) chakra. The third chakra is correlated with personal power, sense of purpose and effectiveness. No wonder I’ve been having digestive issues, which is an indicator of an imbalance in this chakra. I listened intuitively to the energy of doubt. What did it have to tell me?

During my meditation I had to recenter a hundred times, because my mind kept trying to give ways to solve my social media problem. My mind was uncomfortable inviting my doubt in – believing it would sabotage me. But, it was in fact, the exact thing I needed!

By sitting with my doubt, I came to understand that I was feeling like I wasn’t enough. My message wasn’t enough. My effort wasn’t enough. I wasn’t reaching enough people. But, truly my purpose is not tied to the number of likes I get on social media. It’s not an indication of my personal power or my effectiveness in the world. It’s enough to share my gift with the world from my authentic soul-self. When I do my part, I don’t have to worry about the rest. I have to trust my Spiritual Guides will handle it.

So, where does that leave me with my social media? I realized that I had been inauthentic with some of my posts while trying to create more interest. My goal is to put out something on social media every day, which I usually set up ahead of time for the week. Some weeks that didn’t happen – I may have missed a day or two. I have to say okay to that. It means I have more important stuff going on in other areas. So, it’s also about being present to what is, and not worrying about the uncontrollable.

It’s an especially good reminder of how “reality” can quickly get hijacked by popular culture. My doubt was alerting me that my inner truth was at stake. My doubt wasn’t about social media at all. It was about getting re-centered in my personal power and higher purpose. Thank you doubt – I’m sure you’ll be knocking again!